I am not very happy today. I know what has happened but just the same I am upset. I say over and over that I am going to get it together and lose this weight and then at the first sign of stress I drink and then probably over eat. I say probably because I'm not sure, I don't weigh things like nuts and cheese when I am eating and drinking, so who knows. Any way my weight today is up again. Let's recap
1st September 88.9kg
8th September 87.5kg big cheers here of course
15th September 87.9kg I knew I had blown it over the weekend slap the side of my own head
21st September 88.3kg I drank way too much over the Friday to Sunday night period last week. My mum came to visit and I get really stressed when she comes. I love her very very much but we clash and it is a constant effort for me not to talk back and cause an argument. So to chill out I drink. Obviously that didn't work. Well it stop the arguing either, though I was
quick to retreat and all calmed down before it got out of control.
So here I am again lining up for another week of holding my breath to see if I can lose something this week. ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
One high five for me though and I need to acknowledge every little achievement. Yesterday after a very full on day at work I was contemplating grabbing a bottle of red to go with the steak we were having for dinner. I didn't, I got a glimpse of myself in a window as I left work and then in the mirror in the car and I forced myself to drive on and not stop at the bottle shop. I think that is an achievement for me.
So here goes another week.